Release Day Review: Not if I See You First by Eric Lindstrom

Not if i see you firstNot If I See You First by Eric Lindstrom
Genre: YA Contemporary
Publication Date: December 1st, 2015
Publisher: Poppy

Synopsis from Goodreads:

The Rules:

Don’t deceive me. Ever. Especially using my blindness. Especially in public.

Don’t help me unless I ask. Otherwise you’re just getting in my way or bothering me.

Don’t be weird. Seriously, other than having my eyes closed all the time, I’m just like you only smarter.

Parker Grant doesn’t need 20/20 vision to see right through you. That’s why she created the Rules: Don’t treat her any differently just because she’s blind, and never take advantage. There will be no second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart.

When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after being gone for years, Parker knows there’s only one way to react-shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind already, like trying out for the track team (that’s right, her eyes don’t work but her legs still do), doling out tough-love advice to her painfully naive classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn’t cried since her dad’s death three months ago. But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened–both with Scott, and her dad–the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem. Maybe, just maybe, some Rules are meant to be broken.

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Wendy’s Review


Not If I See You First was so much better than I anticipated.  It’s not like I went into the read thinking that it would be a crap book or anything.  Obviously I wanted to read it, I requested it.  When it comes to the type of YA books I love, this was right up my alley.  I think it was just that I was prepared to read something quick and decent, but nothing that would bowl me over.

I’m still standing, but it was a close call.  It sure did make me wobble.

First of all, I read the whole book in a day.  This was a feat I could accomplish regularly as a teenager, but not anymore.  Not since I had to grow up and get a job, and have children, and get married, and adopt pets.  Now when I finish a book in a day, it’s a pretty good indicator that I was completely ensnared.

I can’t even put my finger on what it was that I was so hooked on.  The characters themselves aren’t so groundbreaking.  Frankly, I thought Parker was kinda bitchy.  She did keep be turning the pages, though.  I wanted to know about her relationship with her father, and how much she loved her best friend Sarah.  I wanted to know more about Jason, and Molly.  And of course Scott!  Perhaps it was Parker’s connections that made me love the story so much.

Although, while we’re on the subject, I do have one tiny gripe.  Parker is blind, and on one hand as the reader it was interesting to read a story where the characters looks aren’t discussed at all.  I know that Parker has blue-green eyes, but that’s because someone comments on it.  Mostly, because the story is told from Parker’s perspective, as the reader you get very little.  It made moments like finding out Molly was overweight more interesting.  We had time to form our own image in our heads about each character, just like Parker, so when we find out the truth we’re surprised.  On the other hand, I find it hard to believe that Parker had no idea that her best and oldest friend (Sarah) always wore sweatpants to school.  If she really didn’t know, then she actually was as self-absorbed as she thought.

Finally, what is it with authors who cut the story off right at the most anticipated moment?!  Ugh!  It kills me!  Stop torturing your readers!  Maybe you don’t understand- there are specific moments in every single book that we are dying to get to.  Something special that we are hanging onto every page and moment, aching to reach that specific pinnacle… and then you just CUT IT OFF!

I’ll have you know that I actually screamed at the end of this book.  It was 11:30pm.  When I closed my kindle I was supposed to be able to go right to sleep.  I didn’t.  I couldn’t.  I tossed and turned all night with very important unfinished business floating around in my head.

You’re lucky I survived, Eric Lindstrom! Otherwise my ghost would have come to haunt you.

So unfair.

Rating: ☠  ☠  ☠  ☠  ☠  1/2 = B+

Thank you to Poppy and Netgalley for providing a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.

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Comments 2

  • Is it a cliff hanger with a pending sequel, or just a bad ending?

    • I wouldn’t call it a cliffhanger. You clearly know what’s going to happen, even if we don’t get to read it. It also wasn’t a bad ending. It was a sweet and happy, hopeful ending.

      I’m not sure there’s a sequel, but my guess would be that there isn’t. Even though leaves you on a tiny precipice, the book itself is complete. Did you read Eleanor & Park?